Sunday, January 3, 2010

The big C.

Just before New Year, my cousin sent me a disturbing email about her stepfather who has colon cancer and is terminally ill. He is on his last stage, and has probably a month to live.

Today, I received a sad email from an old friend and classmate. She told me that her husband is suffering from cancer. Ronny is a good and loving husband, caring father, and a funny friend. He's a very jolly person. So you can understand why I am in deep shock. The world needs more people like him!

Mid last year, my uncle was diagnosed of cancer as well. He has been in and out of the hospital since then. Last December 30, he was released from the hospital to spend New Year with his family. I chatted with him right after his cell transplant just before Christmas. I actually didn´t want to talk with him but I thought that it´s high time I conquer my own fears.

You see, a few years ago, a good friend of Hubby also succumb to cancer. I was so freaked out when I found that he had cancer that I begged off to see him while he was being treated. He had brain cancer so it went very fast.

When we went to his burial, I had to literally drag myself to his coffin. I didn´t want to see him there. I wanted to have good memories of him... the times when we had barbecue parties and were simply hanging around and making music together. But at the wake, I had to see him and say goodbye to him.

Needless to say, it cost me sleepless night. I couldn´t believe that our tall, muscular, and tough friend was shrunk to skin and bones. I barely recognized him. And although there was this tiny smile on his lips, all I could see was his pain and suffering etched on his forhead.

Tonight, I pray for all those people suffering from the big C. I pray for their families and friends. I pray for Mel, Ronny and their two adorable daughters. And I pray for all my friends...... especially the ones that I have hurt, and who have hurt me....


Aledys Ver said...

Sorry to hear about your uncle and your friend. It's terrible news and I understand the shock you must be going through. I hope they don't have to suffer too much, the poor things.

~Lopa said...

I dont know why, now a days there are so many cases of C.

yesterday i was talking with my mom, and she was telling me about my aunt who is diagnosed cancer and how they have gone to visit her as doctors say she has hardly got a month or so and so my cousin and his family ( Aunt's youngest son) who are in Canada there are flying there next week.

Mom had been asking me to call her once and talk since last 2-3 months as aunt's health is deteriorating, but i don't know why, i want to talk but i don't have that strength to call and i feel if i do, what will i talk? Its so sad to think about it, sometimes i feel i act like coward trying to ignore facts and trying not to face the reality... I will face any reality, I am not that weak but i just cant face "the end" when you know that it is clearly coming and there is no chance of miracle left... i love miracles... i want them to happen all the times !

Droomvla said...

@Aledys Ver: It was quite depressing news. They are so far away, and there's not much i can do.

Droomvla said...

@Lopa: I know exactly who you feel. When I spoke to my uncle, it was so awkward. I didn't want him to feel like I pity him (and I actually do). At the same time, what is there to talk about, other than the updates on his chemo therapy? It was indeed quite difficult.

I do believe in miracles too. Lots of them happened in my life. And like you, I also want them to happen ALL THE TIME:D